Mind Dump

 It's been so long since I've brain dumped something.  I've been coming here irregularly to loose up my emotions, I've been in constant fight with my husband.  Even though I realise it's not something critical, it always pisses me off.  I mean - if we can't see each other and meet each other's opinion then why are we a married couple? That's what I thought.  Now I am still trying to get through this. I know that it's going to take a long time. But how long? No one knows. It might be eternity. Anyway, I feel like the feelings and thoughts I regularly feel are not present anymore.  The richness of all kinds of varieties of emotions. Sudden thought and long train of thoughts.  I feel like I can only consume because I've been working like a robot where I couldn't actually feed myself something inspiring and sparks joy.  I finish work exhausted and I can only consume things, low effort ones.  It's the job that's exhausting me.  As a result...