I stumbled across screenshots of my conversation with the men I was once closed with. 

I recall a quote that says something like "When you meet the right person but at the wrong place and time, he is not for you." 

I read the conversation with this one person. He was intelligent, and his value did not contradict with me. Talking with him about various things was easy and comfortable. No necessary explanation about what I was trying to say was needed. But one thing turned me off. And I consider that important in a relationship. This one trait can easily be fixed but I wonder why I did not try to fix it? 

Oh. Now I remember the other thing I was hesitant about him. He showed something that I think makes him prone-to-cheat. Even though it wasn't shown when I was interacting with him, I kind of felt and "read" that. I didn't bring up this topic to him.  One day I decided I would just give him up. 

The other chat that I found was from the other man. He was fun to be around with and always there when I needed him. But I couldn't chat with him about various things or anything deep. He was also in difficult situation so maybe I just met him at a wrong time. 

I love my husband now. I think he crossed out most of my priorities when searching for a partner. . 
Among all the other men I was close with, he has the most knowledge on Islam, which is my #1 priority when choosing a partner. I want me, us, to walk in the path of jannah. Yet, he is fun to be around with and always supports my dreams. 

He is patient with me. I tend to lose my temper especially when I'm into my period days but he stays with me. 

Of course, there are things that can be improved, but I am currently happy with him. I accept his strength and weaknesses and I hope I can support him to reach his full potential. 


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